lovers in a broken city

he considered me a
beautiful catastrophe,
a city
that built itself up
and let itself fall
over and over again.
we described my mind
as the most intricate
architecture.
he became my favorite
late night phone call.
my favorite
only distant lover.
he was a transfusion,
that would flow through
my veins,
explaining his need
to be there.
he was different,
and he needed nothing more,
but to show his
genuine intentions,
and he received love.
he wanted to grasp
he wanted to understand
what made my skin crawl,
what made my knees weak,
what made rain fall from my eyes.
he wanted to understand how
the sun set every night,
into darkness,
and rose again
in the morning,
as strong and beautiful as before.
he wanted to walk with me.

thank you heart

When I find myself,
back to writing about the
trouble that you gave me,
I realize that my heart is
teaching me how to heal,
and then let go.

Tomorrow

Nothing good has ever
come out of hating yourself,
hating your body,
hating your life,
hating the universe inside of you.
Take one day
and love everything about you:
the little scar above your eye,
the mole on your finger,
your "nappy" hair,
the way you wake up in the morning,
how your face feels before you've
covered it with makeup
and disgust,
and comparison.
And then take the next day,
and the next week.
Watch how the universe begins
to return the love you
are pouring out of yourself.

you silenced yourself

I am not biting my tongue
just because you haven't yet
learned how to speak to
and from your soul.

Fall and Rise

disgusted. frustrated. bland.
I had thought about giving up
breaking everything down into
little pieces,
burning it,
moving on from another little
"dream".
I had played over and over
in my head
what this process could take,
how far I could take it,
what would happen when I fail.
when I fail.
I didn't even give myself the
opportunity to succeed,
without thinking that I was
going to get stuck.
Breathe.
motivation. determination. mindset.
I had to change my mindset,
reverse my thoughts,
break myself
to put myself back together
in better pieces.
I am capable of anything,
I have so much power
within myself
that I just have to channel and use.
I am.
I am.
I am.
Speak it into existence.
Be it.

2014

embody love within yourself.
every single thing you do
should be done with an
open, selfless, heart.
no expectations for love in return.
not everyone that you love deeply,
will love you the same.
however, that should not stop the
depths and intensity of your love.
love how you love, regardless.
embrace the differences
between your love and someone else's.
don't forget to love yourself completely
from the beginning,
loving others will come more naturally
and be more fulfilling
if you do.
at any point in time,
if you don't like something,
change it.
never be afraid to
start over.
change is good.